Conversations

Having your child grow up is a bitter sweet time. Rett and Levins are growing everyday. It makes me sad that they grow so fast but everyday seems to be more exciting. Since Levins has been around, Rett and I have spent a lot more time together. Just the two of us. I'll admit it's terrifying sometimes. I still get stressed over little things but we have a great time. When she won't take a nap or decides to climb into the booth behind us at a restaurant, it gets a little nerve racking. I am definitely learning patience and I wouldn't change a thing she does.

Rett is a thinker. She is always asking why questions like most children but seems to take it to another level. She is very concerned about Levins. She is always asking me how she is and what she is doing. She wants to know who her nurse is and what outfit she is wearing. Rett loves Levins unconditionally and always will. She gets teary eyed sometimes when she looks at her pictures. It tears me up seeing that but it always shows me she is protective of her sister. I can't wait for the moment when we walk out of the elevator and Rett is waiting to see her sister. I know the ride home is going to be full of conversation about toys, playing, golf cart rides, and dress up. Rett loves her cousins and I know she will be so proud to show her sister off to them.

Rett is questioning a lot of things lately. It amazes me the questions she will ask about God. She wants to know who is responsible for making everything. Which leads to who made God. There will be a conversation one day about Levins and why she can't run as fast or something along those lines. I can honestly say I am ready for that conversation. I know it won't happen for a while but I know Rett will get it. She will understand that God makes everything and is responsible for everything. She will know that God made everything in His image. Knowing that, I know she will understand that Levins is perfect. This was a conversation that used to scare me. Rett has taught me so much as a Father to her. She has taught me how perfect my girls are.

Levins and Mimi had a great moment today. They had a conversation. Between Mimi's tears and Levins cooing it was unreal! It was a moment I will never forget. I worry about her all the time. It was a moment I needed. She let me know she was doing well and she is going to get through this.

Levins is doing much better. Her cold seems to be going away. She fought hard to get through it. She had a couple rough days, which worried us all. This child is amazing. The things this world throws at her are tough but she fights. I'll be honest the day we walk out of here is going to be emotional. I will be a wreck, I think about it every time I drive to the hospital. I think about the time we get to load her up and bring her home. Seeing our family together is going to be a beautiful thing. I'll admit I am most excited about watching my two girls hug for the first time. That moment will be amazing. 

Thank you for all your prayer and support for my family. I can honestly say we can never thank you enough. Levins, Rett, Cullie and I are so lucky to have a support system like we do. Thank you for loving our girls.