Thanksgiving

I will admit I really did not know how to feel about today. The fact that Levins was not going to be with us all together was going to be tough. I prayed a lot this week that God would help us not dwell on that fact, but enjoy our time together. It is definitely going to be different but we have a lot to be thankful for in our lives.

I laid in bed a little longer this morning. Rett came into our room a little earlier than normal and was was cuddled up with us. She was so peaceful and warm. We had a few great conversations yesterday about Levins. She and I talked about when they are older. She wants bunk beds so they can sleep in the same room. She told me she would sleep on the top bunk but would sleep with Levins when she was scared. If she only new the strength and joy I get from her.

I finally got out of bed and started on my way to the hospital. The entire way I kept telling myself how lucky I was. Not all parents are as lucky are we are. Several have Angels flying around the NICU. It was a moment I needed. It let me know not to dwell on us not being together but be thankful for the opportunity we have to be together soon. Days like today let me know how amazing the rest of our life is going to be.

I could not get up here to see her fast enough. She has another one of our favorite nurses today which makes me feel better. She had our favorite night nurse last night. I know that she will be well taken care of. As I walk in I hear Christmas lullaby's playing. She was fast a sleep. It let me know that God was watching over her. Hearing that music was definitely what I needed.

Monday is a big day for us. Levins will go back to the OR to see how far the gap is now. We are hoping and praying it is close enough that we can repair it someway. We have several different options. I feel like we are getting closer and should have options Monday afternoon. I pray that we make the right decision. It is decisions like these that we will have to make for the rest of our lives. I pray that God will lead us down the right path. I do know that we are one day closer to her coming home.

The only thing that could make my hospital visit today better would be to have Cullie and Rett here with me. I know that is not an option, but it will be happening very soon when she comes home. I do not think Levins has any idea what she is getting into. Rett is so excited to have her home. Snuggle your babies this Thanksgiving. I know that is what we will be doing today.