Strong

I hope someday everyone will see Cullie as the amazing woman she is. I am in awe of her everyday. Not because she is the love of my life but also watching her Mother our children. Until you are in the situation we are, it is not something you can explain. She is always where she needs to be. She is balancing this insane time in our lives so well. The love of a Mother to her children is something I can never describe.

Her strength is unbelievable. Not having her children together is pulling strings on her heart every second of the day. I really hope one day she will understand how amazing she is. I don't understand how Rett, Levins, and I got so lucky. I know God picked right when he placed this woman in a situation that can be overwhelming for anyone. He picked a woman that is selfless. He picked a woman that is our glue.

She got a call this morning from the NICU. Levins had been struggling the past couple days. Her secretions were much higher and she was working very hard to breathe. I could see the look of pain in her face. It is something as a husband and father you never want to see. A virus of any kind can be scary for a 2 month old child. Add in the fact that she can't swallow and it gets scarier. We are probably going to move to an isolation room and hope the virus runs its course quickly. She may have to go back onto a CPAP machine. Pray for this little one.

As we flew to get ready and head to the hospital, all I could think about was how lucky I was to have Cullie. Watching her walk into the NICU and fly to Levins bedside was amazing. She immediately started talking to her and loving on her. I know Levins felt better hearing her voice and knowing that her Mama was there. It was a moment I won't ever forget. 

A person's true colors come out in the most stressful times. I knew long before we dated that she made me want to be a better person. I never imagined how strong she really is. She is my hero. Being in an unusually high amount of stress can help or kill a marriage. I believe it has made our marriage so much stronger. It has definitely showed me how important marriage is. God's plan for our lives has been crazy and sometimes overwhelming, but he has showed me how good I actually have it. I have an amazing wife and two beautiful girls. We will all be together soon.

Pray for Cullie. Pray for her strength. Pray for Levins and that this virus will run its course and she will be stronger because of it. Pray for Rett. She wants her sister home. God has a plan and we are staying the course.